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Our Independence Day Cake



Sorry for such a dark picture :P
It was a great way to celebrate the fourth(along with the zoo, beach, and fireworks!) and a decadent way to enjoy all of the fresh blueberries and raspberries growing in the yard. A very very good summer cake!
Recipe here

This never fails to make me smile.....

What we've bee up to....lazy style!

- Playing, parking, beaching, sand castle building, library-ing, crafting, zoo-ing, strawberry picking, camping, hiking, bonfire-ing, painting, farmers market-ing, drawing, and swim swim swimming our hearts out!! Loving all that Summer is.

- Being greatful that our favorite Library has THE best children's librarian who does THE best acting and charecter voices for Story Time
- Being greatful that our favorite Library has such an easy book renewal system. I can hardly get through 2 books during the time I rent them for
- Enjoying having a potty trained boy!!! We are officialy out of diapers!!
- Indulging in the new daily tradition of jumping on the beds after nap time while singing 5 Little Monkeys Jumping On The Bed
- Trying not to fall off
- Not always succeding
- Horseback riding every afternoon with the two new horses I've been hired to train
- Loving being paid to hang out with my son and ride horses
- Still pregnant! And geting more excited and hopeful with every passing day. First scan on the 17th! Might have some very interesting news to share....
- Being head over heels in love with 20 months :) Not seeing any sign of the terrible twos. Yet
- Having some breathing room in our finances. Being more and more sure we'll put an offer on the hobby farm ( 4 bed, 3 bath on 2 acers) in the fall/winter.
- Hoping beyond hope that it's still on the market then.
- Thinking that house sitting could not have been any worse. Either I'm truly not a dog person, or we were intrusted with the care and keeping of the three worst Hellhounds in the tri state area.
- Hating any weather hotter then 80 degrees.
- Loving living in a place where it can be 67 degrees in June and July! I'm just not cut out for the heat :P
- Loving that my son loves ABBA
- Sword fighting with cousin Will (Liam that is...not me :P)
- Feeling overwhelmed by the laundry lately
- Taking in Liam's first movie!! "Up"! It was way over his head (he did however enjoy the fact that there were lots of doggies) but Matt and I loved it. Fair warning...bring tissues!  Liam just sat between us and shared popcorn and M&M's and giggled at all of the funny bits :) It was such a  wonderful experience that I see us doing many more. Next up, the new H. Miazake film "Ponyo".
- Spending LOTS of time with Matt's parents and coming to a new level of family bonding. He and his dad hug now! They're gaga over the Model T's which is something I never expected from Matt. Both of them are even going on a road trip together, just the two of them,  in July to an air show with the T's.  Pretty cool stuff.
- Constantly listening to the Disney broadway classics station I set up on Pandora. It started with the Broadway version of the Lion King and we've been enjoying finding out what all else is out there!
-Discovering reason 99237 to love 'extended' breastfeeding. Nursing combats nausea! It's been so awesome to just pick Liam up and snuggle and nurse whenever I feel really sick. It's allowed me to really enjoy this pregnancy so far!
- Finding my patience quite short lately. Trying to be very mindful of that fact and working through it
- Realizing I have more friends then I've ever had in my entire life right now. Being so, so, SO grateful for this fact
- Falling in love with co-sleeping all over again in our new King size bed!
- Having an impromptu toddler dance session in the dairy isle at Whole Foods with two complete strangers and their children :)
- Finally feeling comfortable enough with myself to dance like no one is watching, even when I know 15 + people actually are 
- Making time every week to scrapbook. And looking back on all of my completed scrapbook projects. Feeling good about capturing and preserving our family memories in this way

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PW love

I am enjoying a big ol' late night helping of this right now.

All is well in the Nicholson house :) 

D'oh

Today is the 15th. Check!
It is a Monday. Check!
It's playgroup day. Check! (had a blast!)
I'm on call for LLL from 1-3. Check!
It's my MIL's birthday.Surprise her with a spa gift cert and flowers. Check!

Am I missing anything........??

Oh Yeah!

It's our anniversary!!
D'oh!!

We actually both forgot until MIL called to wish us a happy anniversary since we share the same anniversary as Matt's parents (which sounds a bit cheesy, but It's actually pretty neat!) .

All we could do is look at each other and laugh :)
I'm so insanely thankful that I'm in a partnership where we can both laugh about stuff like this instead of one of us getting all fussy about it being forgotten. 

So I nipped out and got some take out from our favorite Chinese place (It's our tradition to eat Asian food on our anniversary ever since our honeymoon sushi fest :P) and called my sister to ask her to sit for Liam this weekend so we can get dressed up, go out, and have lunch at the Anaba Tearoom.
And as a "Holy Crap, it's been 2 years!!" gift to each other we decided we're going to go out and get a new plush bed set (to go with our new king size bed being delivered later this week!) because the traditional Second Anniversary gift is cotton.

So, happy 2nd baby!
It's been a wonderful, whirlwind ride, and I wouldn't change a single minute of it :)

Greatest eating device. Ever......


Bamboo Spork!





They are just a little bit bigger than this in real life.

We picked up 8 for Liam at Whole Foods, and they quickly became a "can't do without" for him.

We love them because:
-Made from sustainable, chemical free, and plastic free substance.
-Compact.
-Reusable.
-Super Cheap
-Easy for toddler hands to manuver.
-It's a frickin' spork!!

We've been doing a LOT of impromptu picnics now that the weather is lukewarm-ish and sticking three of them in my pocket for the family to eat with is so easy!
I seriously can't say enough good things about these silly little sporks. :)

I want to spread the good spork news! So pass on the word!!




LOL


I normally don't give Diet Ads a second thought...but this one caught my eye, and I can't help but LOL at it!!

It's too crazy not to share.




On the Left:
Pale
Pregnant
Brunette

On the Right:
Orange
Not Pregnant
Blond


That's one HELL of a before and after in just one week!! :P



Well, I didn't think that I was going to write about this here. In such a public forum. One that I know many close friends and family read. But I find myself now sitting at the keyboard needing an outlet for my thoughts on the matter. So here goes...

I am pregnant again. 

So far things are looking good, and I'm sick and tired as hell which is also a great sign. But I'm finding myself very ambivilent to it all.

After so many losses (3 to be exact) in the recent months, I just can't muster up much excitment. I'm tired and enbittered, and just so wary of letting that spark of hope creep in only to be snuffed out once again.  

Part of me thinks that It's a way of protecting myself in case things don't go well again, another part of me asserts that I'm just so worn out from having to be "on" 24/7 for a toddler already that I'm not in the right frame of mind. But no matter the rational... the fact remains that I still feel guilty.

I really do want the excitment and bubbly-ness to be here! But I can't fake it and I can't force it.

Right now I'm simply counting the days. Watching the weeks go by. Staying helthy and relaxed. 
Trying to keep my mind off of it, but simotaniously keeping a central part of me focused on it so as not to let it slip away.

So, that's where I'm at right now.
Hopefully at my appointment in a few weeks I can gain some reasurrence in the form of actually seeing a little heartbeat, but until then...I'm just, here.



 

Perspective

Some days...when it gets really rough, I make a point to look at this picture and remind myself....




It's not that bad.